Time.

Among the piles of papers on my desk, my tea that is slowly getting luke-warm, the dishes in the sink, I can't help but to drop everything that I am doing right now and write a blog post. 

As you click the link to my blog, or have signed up for instantaneous emails (which I encourage all of you to do ;))  you will notice that I changed the template a bit, I felt a change was needed :)

As I sip my tea, and hear the two rambunctious kids upstairs in our semi-basement apartment, I can't help but feel a sense of happiness. Life has been busy, and I know it has been busy for a lot of people. I am feeling lately that the more I think about doing something, calling someone, or writing a blog post, I take more time thinking about it and trying to fit it in my schedule than actually sitting down and doing it. So here I am...with at least four hours of studying to do tonight and it is already after 7:00pm, I still need to wash the dishes, tidy our cute little abode, answer emails, and pre-read for tomorrow's lectures, but all I could think about was writing. 

I feel as though everyone wishes they had more of something, and if you ask every medical student, they will respond with: time. Or any student for that matter. Or mothers. Or fathers. Or the elderly. We all want more out of each day, even though some days we want it to end rather quickly. It is an odd concept. As every day passes, and long hours of studying swiftly escape me, I can't help but sit back and really enjoy this ride that I am on. I could not imagine studying any other material this intensely, and I am happy my parents told me: "you can do this, just put your mind to it and we know you can do it". Without their support, I know I would have taken the easy way out, and not have been challenged mentally every single day in this program. I really am thankful every time I leave the classroom.

I want people who are reading this to know that you have to make the time for stuff that matters. Whether it is staying up late to skype with your bff, writing a snail mail letter because physical mail is so much better than a facebook message, or making sure you do something for yourself each week, or heck, every day! Why not? We have so much going on in our lives and it is easy to get caught up in the chaotic lifestyle, and forget about the little things. How such perfect timing for Valentine's am I right?

Ok, my tea is not officially cold, and for anyone who knows me, they know I like it absolutely burning, I know, I know...I'm weird. Off to look over Picornaviridae and Orthomyxoviridae lecture slides, and talking about vaccines, and how they are essential to one's health. No debate about that after seeing some of these pictures! Yikes!

Have an amazing Wednesday night everyone :)

Bye for now,

-E xo

Who would I be without pictures?

Pretending to be a model. Hayyyyy

Love Tracy Olan's work. 

I miss this view.

And this one...

Cutie.

Our hotel.

On our way to Hobbiton!

Three generations. 

Castle Hill. 

Nelson for NYE!

3 Months To Go

Hey everyone! I know it has been awhile since I have written, but I think it will be like that throughout my time at school, it has been so hectic this past week. I am now feeling the stress of the material, and I now understand the commitment, sacrifice, and determination to do well...to be honest I am quite tired already...yikes!

So the last time that I have written was at the beginning of January, and even though it doesn't seem like that long ago, a lot has happened in that time span. The random 2-week break that we had gotten for Christmas was very helpful, as it let me really study the material that we had learned thus far. After the break, we had another 2 weeks of material to learn before our first exam of MERP. It was tough, but with all my studying that I had done, I am happy with my grade. I got a 92% in anatomy, yea! Really happy to use my memorization skills and put them to the test. I need to work on microbiology and physiology a bit, but they were still a good percentage above the average so I am happy. The average overall for the first Mini Exam (don't let the name fool you, it is not "mini"), was a 62% overall, that means that over half the class is failing this program so far...that is not good (you need at least a 65% to pass). I think people underestimated the time it would take to study, and the amount of studying that needs to be done. Thankfully, from my undergrad I know the feeling of pressure studying, not by choice, but understanding that I need to get as much studying done as I can before next week gets harder. If we had a tournament coming up, I would make sure I would get everything done beforehand, or if we had that awful trip to Maine coming up, I would study hard...write my exam early, and study for my classes for the following week. Med school is tough, it is a lot of work, but you have to be ready to put the time in. Period. I think people got a huge wake-up call, which is great to have now, before the island in May.

Speaking of May, starting today, Stephen and I officially have 3 months left in North York. Where did the time go? I felt as though it was November last week, and not even close to February. My program ends April 2nd, and then we leave exactly on May 1st as my orientation starts May 4th, and classes officially start May 11th. It is all happening so quickly, but I am definitely ready for it. I have tried to balance my workouts, eating healthy, and cutting the snacking, but it is hard. I have realized I need to set more time aside for "me" and really hone in on how I'm feeling. It is easy to look at all the papers in front of you and get lost in all the work you need to get done that night, but it is hard to take a step back and think: "ok, did I eat yet?" "Am I hungry?" "what time is it?" "what do I need to do RIGHT now?" "Where is Steve?"lol When you are studying, the night honestly goes way too fast, as you look up and it is already 11:00pm, Ah! weird..I just looked over and my clock and it was 11pm! Must be a sign :)

At the end of the day, the material is amazing. I do not think I would have done well on the first exam if I did not enjoy it...except Immunology, man that stuff is hard! You have to find your passion, I found mine quite later in life, but really 26 is not that late in finding what you really want to do. I enjoy people, interacting, making them better, and explaining complex material in a way where people understand what they need to do to make a healthier life change. I can NOT wait to own my own gym with Steve, have my practice set up with his office right beside mine, and using functional movements and dietary health to help overcome many illnesses that are prevalent today.

Thank you all for following my progress and checking in to see how I am doing, you all are the best. I have a quiz in the morning at 8am and the roads are supposed to be quite bad, so I better head to bed before the morning comes way too quickly!

As always, some pictures:

Mount Cook :)

Steve looking adorable. I miss that cooker!

Milford Sound 

Big fruit!

Castle hill love.

Big monuments everywhere!

Such good ice cream!

Steve's 98 year old grandma

Big apple! NZ style!

I like 2015

Hello folks! Ok first: sorry it has taken me forever to write a new blog post. My ideal situation was to write a couple of posts over the holidays and one right on Jan 1st to start the new year right! Well...I ended up studying a lot more than I thought as our program literally shoveled so much information into us before the break. Second: Thank you to all of my followers that write me saying such amazing things, you make my heart feel warm and fuzzy :)

I am currently back in Toronto and the weather is -16 (Celsius for you Americans :p) and with the wind chill it feels like -30. Yikes! The ONE time I have to take the bus is today, as Stephen is gone to work from 7:30am-7:30pm...poor guy. So I have a 10-12 min walk today to the bus stop in this ridiculous weather, and they are even saying that frostbite only takes 8 minutes today...8 minutes?! I will definitely have to bundle up.

These holidays were absolutely amazing. Since Stephen and I missed last year because of our travels throughout New Zealand, it was nice to be home with our respective families. This was actually the first Christmas where I had time off. Throughout university, we had to be back on campus for Dec. 26th, as basketball practice for us started on the 27th. This week of practice was always dreaded as the entire time everyone was home for Christmas, you could not help but think of all the food you are eating potentially might end up on the basketball court after shuttle testing. *shiver*...I DESPISE shuttle runs. I think I have PTSD from college basketball...I am not even lying. I remember one year we had a game on December 22nd, and since Canada had a huge snow storm that year, I only got to be home until the 25th and leave on Christmas night to stay in a hotel in Watertown, NY and then take the bus that next morning and anxiously await those dreaded practices. Not fun.

Since having 10 days off for Christmas this year, I honestly did not know what I was missing. I loved every second of being home and it was such a relaxed atmosphere in the Cronk household. I got to help my Dad put the horses in the barn, brush off snow and ice from their backs, go over and see our oxen team Duke and Leroy, some 4-wheeling, and enjoying a couple winter campfires outside. I really am lucky to live in such a beautiful place. While I was home, I decided to study for the sole reason that as soon as we came back we had a group quiz and an individual quiz that Monday. I got the grades last night and I did well, so my studying paid off! (except for Physio, man is it tough!)

Our first big exam is Jan 23rd, which accounts for 25% of our grade, and previous students have said to MAKE SURE to do well on this one, as it only gets harder with time. I am trying to understand each lecture as it is being taught that day by going over it at night. This week we have night classes, which actually are harder because we do not finish until 9pm. So from 4pm-9pm I am sitting on my butt and not moving, just writing. I am going to do a quick home workout today or power yoga, have not decided yet, but knowing myself I will need to do something before sitting that long. The material we are learning is actually really interesting. I had no idea that I would love learning about the spinal cord this much, and how different somatosensory pathways innervate various parts of our brain depending on the type of signal. I had no idea that the spinocerebellar pathway dealt with proprioception ("position sense") and that it has its own specific pathway in the brain. Really cool...or maybe that is just my nerd attribute coming out :)

Just before the break, my good friend Joe started this amazing blog GetLivin, which beautifully captures the stories of some amazing people. Joe asked me awhile back if I could write my story and submit it for presentation on his blog, and from the overwhelming, heart-felt messages that I have received from it-I am SO happy that I did. Thanks Joe! The link is right here:

https://getlivinblog.wordpress.com/2014/12/16/emma-cronk/

So just click the link and have yourself another read if you would like. Or bookmark it and read it at a later time, and find yourself engulfed by some amazing stories on there. Also, you can also follow the blog on Instagram and facebook, just search GetLivin. For those of you that have Instagram, I also just got it and my username is: @d1todr, feel free to follow!

Alright peeps, I need to officially get ready for this freezing weather outside! I have about an hour of reading left to do for class, home gym time for about 45 min, then to get ready and get bundled! Wish me luck!

And as always, here are some random pictures :)

Bye for now,

-E xo

Milford Sound :)

Working out with sisters is the best!

Got to see this lil gem in Toronto on the weekend! We first officially met in Vietnam!

I love him.

Clay Cliffs, NZ!

I miss my Tues night class @ CrossFit Limestone!

This picture is featured on the blog GetLivin, head on over and have yourself an amazing read!

The First Week is Over...I Survived

It is Monday evening and I literally just woke up from a much needed power nap before I start reviewing today's lecture material, which is on neural tissues and reading histological slides (yay). I have now realized what studying in med school is really like and I could not be more thankful for the program that I am in. I have now realized that my study habits that I have so precisely mastered in my undergraduate degree, does not necessarily transfer over as easily at this level. This is what my typical day looked like last week:

Wake-up: 6:00am
Lecture: 7:30-11:30am
Lunch: 11:30-12:00pm
Academic Success lecture: 12:00-1:00pm
Usually anatomy lecture/Meeting/Reviewing questions: 2:00-3:00pm
Study: 4:00pm-9:00pm
Sleep: 10pm-6:00am

After leaving campus, I take about an hour off and study from 4:00pm-9:00pm reviewing important concepts that I learned that day, and re-writing a bulk of my notes and highlighting terms I am not familiar with. I have realized this past week that it is WAY too time consuming. I did well on my quiz today (we have an individual and group quizzes every Monday, and today we had another anatomy lecture after an intellectually stimulating morning, it was an extremely long and exhausting day..but it is definitely practice for the island in May), but I felt that I "over-studied" if that makes any sense. I learned almost too much of everything, and not each subject really well. I literally memorized entire chapters, where I needed to know only the pathway. This week I have made the decision to re-read and review the textbooks while highlighting important terms, and only then will I write out pathways and diagrams on my white-board. This will save me time and will help me memorize the material in a more "active" studying type way. I will see how it goes!

I am slowly realizing the fact that I am in this for the long haul...four more years and potentially four more years on top of that of residency for my future Physiatry program. The weird part is...I am actually excited about it. We are such complex human beings and learning about how our bodies fight off pathogens without the use of vaccines is absolutely amazing or more specifically how B cell and T cells undergo somatic recombination to create specific antibody receptors for certain antigens in our body..all without us knowing. This process is happening all the time. I also love collaborating in groups, and trying to come up with the "best" answer in a clinical scenario, and helping others succeed and understand complex material along the way.

I am definitely tired, but I think that was my own fault of my time-management this past week. I am not used to having all this free time in the late afternoon/evenings so I filled it with studying instead. I also want to point out that yes, it is definitely a lot busier than undergrad, but for future MERP students out there it is definitely doable. I know I am only one quiz in, but if you study properly and set aside some time for yourself each week, you will do fine. You can do anything you put your mind to, and I honestly believe that we are always learning, so why not challenge that learning?

Off to make some dinner! Steve and I are having chicken (for Steve), Veggie patty (for me), and big bowl of ceasar salad (for both...no bacon bits though :)). Yum.

Keep me in your thoughts this week and know that even though I don't have time to post every week, I am thinking about it 24/7!

Bye for now,

E xo

I just love this. It was too funny not to post.

Working out: my outlet.

G-Protein Coupled Receptor! Have not taken pharmacology, but taught it to myself :)

I love my agenda

Arrowtown! Because I am missing NZ way too much.

Lake Mistletoe! How fitting for this time of year :)

The Time Has Come

Hello my fellow readers, the time has officially come for me to start school this week! I have check-in this Thursday, in which I get my laptop configured to the system and meet my classmates, and Friday I get my picture taken for my student card and get access codes, a key fob, etc. I have come to realize that I may not be able to blog once a week like I had hoped. The reason for this is that current and past students are saying a day in the life of a MERP students looks like this:

8:00am-12:00pm: Lectures (Two 2-hour class lectures, one from 8-10, another from 10-12)
12:00-2:00pm: Lunch Break/Study Time
2:00-3:00pm: Academic Success Meeting OR Anatomy Lab

I am pretty much gone all day, and after I get back home, workout for an hour, eat dinner, and look over my lecture notes from that morning, it is already 10:00pm and I need to go to bed to get up and do it all over again. Yay. I know my scheduling is highly determined by time management skills, and thankfully, that is the one thing I know for sure I can do properly. From organizing my life in undergrad to the point where I would actually schedule "sleep" in my agenda, I know I can figure out my days here in Toronto. I am definitely excited to get started!

I will try my best to blog every Sunday or Monday (Ok..I know today is Tuesday...I am already not staying true to my word!), but by the sounds of it, I will be a lot busier than I thought I would be. I will know more in the next couple days as they will officially give us a schedule, outlining our days more in-depth. I also wanted to mention in this blog post of how grateful I am for my supporters. People have said some amazing and motivational statements and have messaged me some tear-jerking messages. From people who I know and love, to people who I would never think would read my blog, it is truly amazing to feel the love and support from all of you. Since moving up November 1st to North York, a month early before my school semester commencing, I really had some days where I questioned if I am doing the right thing. From a massive loan, to leaving my family, missing weddings, engagements, and birthday parties, I know I would be sacrificing a lot in the next couple years. A pleasant email from a fellow high school friend (yea Sydenham! lol) sent me the nicest message, which was facilitated by her reading my last blog post to encourage an act of kindness: "call or message someone who you haven't in many years, just to see how they are doing." She mentioned to me that: "If you aren't moving forward, what's the point? Staying stagnant does nothing, but if you go for something, at best you get what you have worked for, at worst it's a learning experience. What's there to lose? Even if you aren't sure if you are doing the right thing school or life or whatever, you are moving forward! And that's never a mistake." Wow thank you so much Chelsea! That message came at the perfect time :) Let's go for a drink soon!

All in all, I just wanted to say thank-you. If you have stumbled across this blog last week or have been a follower since Day 1...Thank You. This journey of mine will definitely have its ups and downs, and thankfully I have amazing people in my life to help me along the way. I am off to look over some notes, not much longer where I can voluntarily decide to do this, soon it will be "AHHH look over everything right now!" Highlight. Re-write notes. Write on the white board. Draw flow chart. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. I know I am a nerd when I can't wait to do this.

Bye for now! And Happy December! <-- Do people say this? I don't know, but enjoy !

-E xo

What I am learning today :)

It has been one month since I had to put my cat, Nelly, down. Wow how I miss her. 

Open your eyes, silly! lol 

My cousin, Dana, and I meeting our childhood and adult inspiration!

Typical. Byron Bay, Australia!

Mount Cook, NZ

Learning from the best. Dmitry Klokov

Stephen getting some tips from the Russian Olympic Weightlifter! 

Get Inspired

Over the past couple weeks I have been lucky enough to travel home to my parent's farm for a visit and have met some amazing new people up here in North York. I wanted to write this post to let people know how important it is to surround yourself with people who are not only positive, but who want the best in life for you. As I have grown to the ripe old age of 26 (ok ok, I feel a lot older than 26), it has come to light the differences between close friends and acquaintances. As I have gotten older, I can feel myself wanting the comfort of having about five friends to call my "close friends" and I am totally okay with that number. I feel as though it is hard to direct your energy and your attention to about twenty friends, and at the end of the day, how many of those twenty could you call at any hour of the night to talk about something really important?

The reason that positivity in one's life is so important is that it tends to directly affect who you are. In 2010, I had a very bad year. Basketball sucked, long hours at the gym, Steve and I broke up, my parents were going through some tough times, and school was harder than ever. If it was not for the people and my teammates that surrounded me everyday, I honestly felt like giving up. I look back now and there are some days, if not weeks, that I remember laying in bed thinking "I do not know if I could get up and do this all again tomorrow with a smile on my face." But that's the thing, you don't have to act happy all the time, you just need to get up and get it done on days where you do not feel like doing anything. Like the infamous line goes "Everything happens for a reason", in which I some-what agree with, but at the end of the day I feel that we are in control of our actions. I could have packed up and gone home, some of my credits would have transferred back home in Canada, I would be a year behind in my studies, I would be a regular student with no basketball, with a lot of debt. So I sucked it up, surrounded myself with some amazing people, kicked butt in practice, and studied hard. Life is not about putting a smile on because you have to, it is about knowing that somewhere else in this big world of ours, someone would love to be in your position right now. Someone would love to play basketball and graduate with no debt, and someone would love to make those friendships that you so deeply needed to get through those tough times. Life is way too short to settle for something less than you are capable of and you are SO much stronger than you think you are. I learned that the hard way.

When my sisters and I were little, and if we got hurt playing in the mud, riding a horse, or a grade 5 little mischievous boy broke our heart, my dad would always say: "You're a Cronk girl, nothing can hurt you". To this day, I literally keep that saying with me. Because even though my dad was saying that to stop the tears from slowly running down our cheeks, there is a lot of truth to that statement. I do not think I would have made it through the U.S without knowing what hard work really is, and persevering when your life seems like it's going to hell in a hand-basket. My parents have done a wonderful job in showing us that nothing in this world comes easy, and that you might as well work hard now, so you can enjoy anything you want in life later. Thanks to them, I can not wait to begin this medical school journey. 

What I want you to try and do this month (it is the season for giving right?!):

-Be the reason someone wakes up one morning and smiles
-Call or message someone who you haven't in many years, just to see how the are doing

-Plan a trip for next year. Just for you. Even if it is for a night

-Talk about something that you have needed to get off your chest with that certain someone

-Be gentle to those that seem like they do not need it

-Do not go to bed angry

- Kiss your pets a lot!

Off to The Humane Society in North York to see if we can walk some dogs today! Stephen's idea!

Bye for now, 

-E 

Instagram: @d1todr

My parents and my little sister's graduation! (Please note my Dad's horse shirt and buckle lol)

Love them.

Abseiling down a waterfall in Da Lat, Vietnam!

Beautiful Queenstown. New Zealand

Love these girls. Vietnam <3

Had to get a picture with Cow Lane!

Find someone who loves to go on adventures with you!

On our farm :)

A team that parties together, stays together! lol

Cranial Nerves

It is Sunday morning around 10am and as I sit in my wonderfully tiny abode, I am surrounded by textbooks, highlighters, a white board, and various colours of markers. The time has officially come for me to start my studying, and sadly, I could not be more excited.

My course does not start until the first week of December, so "why is she studying?" you may ask yourself..and for an ingenious reply, I say "because I'm Emma Cronk." For the people that know me, I study because I actually enjoy it. I read to learn. I do not read casually, I do not "read for fun" like my little sister who finished all The Hunger Games books in about five days (crazy girl!). I have learned to read with intent on learning something, and I have always been that way. Not saying curling up on a couch with some tea and a great novel is a bad thing, it is just something that I have not been able to do ever in my life. Throughout undergrad, I had to read frantically to keep up to the pace of basketball and my courses, I had no time to grab an interesting read and sneak away into the library, I had to study to make up for lost time in the classroom. As I sit here now with all of my books open in front of me, I can't help but sit back and remember the last time I actually studied. Yes I studied for my MCAT, which was brutal, and yes I studied for my CPR-C course and Standard First Aid, but when was the last time I was really excited about the material and information was easy to grasp because so? That would be the year 2011. Way back. I say way back because in a couple months that will be four years ago...do I still have what it takes to study? Do I even remember how to do it? Do I still have the discipline to get up at 6am and look over my material?

The answers to these questions were answered loud and clear on Friday night when I was studying cranial nerves. Yes...this was my exciting Friday night. I had read in numerous blogs and from asking advice from current and past medical students that buying a white board with markers is the BEST studying tool. It is a form of active studying, rather than passive studying. The difference is huge. For example, you can read a textbook in a stationary position for hours, maybe underlining some key phrases or maybe even highlighting, but are you really learning the material? Has it really sunk in? This is what I call passive studying, as you are not fully engaging your brain about the material. When you are up at a white board, you are moving, you are engaged, you are writing out important phrases and drawing images over and over and over again. You are using your brain's full capacity. You are actively studying the material so your brain can reiterate it on a quiz or exam. For me, writing things out over and over again ingrains it in my mind, and for medical school, you can not just memorize verbatim, you need to be able to understand how all the information ties into one another. So there I am, cracking open my brand new "Essential Clinic Anatomy" textbook for the first time since purchasing it ($15 down from $100..booyah!...gotta love Amazon) and opening the chapter to cranial nerves. For current MERPers and past MERPers, (the course that I am enrolled in before I attend Ross University), they say if you are eager and want to look over material before you begin, study glycolysis, TCA, and cranial nerves. Those will haunt you forever in your medical school path and give students a lot of trouble. Throughout my undergrad and majoring in Biology, my glycolysis background is pretty strong, as well as TCA also called citric acid cycle or Krebs cycle, so I thought I would start with the cranial nerves. All 12 of them. Yikes. Here is my mnemonic:

Oh
Oh
Oh
To
Touch
A
Female's
Vagina
Gives
Vinnie
A
Hard-On

So rude eh? haha But I found that many medical students need some enlightenment from all the studying they are doing, that almost every mnemonic has some rude connotation! Hilarious and it definitely helps with remembering. If you are ever bored, I promise you, you will get a kick out of googling some medical mnemonics. So what are the nerves?

Olfactory
Optic
Oculomotor
Trochlear
Trigeminal
Abducent
Facial
Vestibulocochlear
Glossopharyngeal
Vagus
Accessory Spinal/Spinal accessory nerve
Hypoglossal

I did that without looking at my notes! That was since Friday night. I think I have them memorized. What I learned from Friday and the fact of studying pretty hard four years later, is that I have nothing to worry about. I learned the nerves and most of their function by writing them on the white board only twice. Fortunately, I have a photographic memory, meaning I can remember the terms I had written previously even when the white board is blank. I remember how to train my brain to study, and by using this white board and coloured markers, I am ready to tackle this material. I got excited knowing it came back to me really quickly, and it felt good knowing I still got it :) For all students, high school, medical, law, or still in undergrad, I fully believe that our brains are structured to learn anything we want to, no matter how complex. If you need a change from the traditional passive studying, buy yourself a white board, get in a group and start practicing. It will honestly change the way you learn material. It definitely worked for me in the past, and even more so now.

Off to dive in a bit deeper with our amazing brain of ours, wow we are complicated beings, but I don't need to be in medical school to know that!

Bye for now,

--E xo

Here is a picture from Friday of me studying:

Study study study!

Our cute little apartment. Sorry for the clothes to the right, they are now washed! 

All four sisters together on Halloween the night before I moved to North York 

Found this picture while trying to find a picture of our apartment, a physician I shadowed in Vietnam, I miss her!